"Preparing For The Harvest"

Have you ever thought that God has forgotten your prayer request from years ago?  Over the years I have strived to find my place.  I would always start somewhere, but find that God would used me to assist others, but it never felt like I had a home of my own.   The preparation came through me never giving up, and sharing the love of God wherever He placed me.  My understanding of ministry, and helping others has changed over the years in that I myself must be healthy, seek God personally, and believe in what God is doing in my life.  I have traveled, worked many places, but have always felt in my heart that God was developing me for a greater purpose.  I realize now that many of the challenges that I have faced God has used to develop and mature me.  This month God has moved in a remarkable way through me interacting with Pastor Denise Minyard of Spiritual Awakening Ministries.  She has offered me the opportunity to partake in her ministry as Pastor.  It comes with great responsibility, but the blessing of being able to share the love of God on a greater platform has touched my heart.  My heart and desire is that the people are able to discover the love of God.  If I can play a small part in equipping people, and building people up in God it would be an honor and privilege.  One thing I have realized today is that God will take the mess, teach us through it, and us it to reveal to us His love, and divinity.  My prayer today is that when people interact with me that they see the love of God shinning through.

KTW Ministries "Finally Free"
PO Box 1173
Wilmington, DE 19899
(848)222-9999
Email:  finallyfree@bellsouth.net

Emotionalism

What's going on these day? Well I believe that the adjustment to New Jersey is going well. I do not like the cold whether, but I do miss the change of the seasons. I have much that I have been praying about, and much that has come my way in a short time. With every blessing their remains responsibilities. This week I got a little upset with myself. I got caught in my emotions several times that took me out of the peace of God. I had a lesson on handling my emotions, and not allowing myself to get caught up in my past circumstances. What happened was I began to see a circumstance to develop that reflected a past situation that hurt my feelings. I immediately went into defense mode. Saying things that I did not mean, and finding myself losing my peace, and was miserable for most of the day. Now that I am on the other side of the dilemma as I look back I say OK Ken you lost that one, but I am still in the game because of grace. I have some opportunities that have presented itself, and I have made it my business to take them before the Lord before I make any move. I heard a couple great sermons this week that I believe God was speaking directly to me. Ezekiel when he walk through the valley of dry bones. He prophesied to those bones, and they came to life. I have some dead areas in my life that I am prophesying over and believing that God will bring them to life. Also I heard a remarkable sermon about keeping my peace. Both these sermons was needed as I enter this weekend. My auntie and I will be attending my daughters wedding this week. I am excited for her, and blessed to have a daughter that loves the Lord, and have a determined spirit. Dealing with my emotions can be difficult at times, because I love hard, and give much of myself away. What keeps me centered is the Word, therefore I must continually meditate, and seek God. I am in uncharted waters these days, and if not grounded the devil tries to attack with fear. What most important is that I stay connected to God, and allow Him to direct my life. He is in control, and whatever He has for me is for me. This is my year of extraordinary blessing, resources, and the out pouring of the spirit that will enable me, and the ministry to bless others. - Amen -

WOW! - I'm In Awe.........

I have been in Florida for a total of 9 years, and spend approximately 2 years in Texas. The total journey to these two states was training for me in ministry. I didn't plan it this way, but this is the way that it turned out because God had a plan for my life. God allowed my mess to bring discomfort, and I began searching for answers to life. I left New Jersey due to some emotional complexities in my life, and wanted to start over. This past week I moved back to New Jersey from Florida. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would do something like this. What I have discovered in this journey is that God is in total control of our journeys. I lost some things that was dear to my heart years ago, but God has blessed me today in a way that words cannot even begin to express. What makes life today all the more meaningful is that I am willing to go and do what God places on my heart, and leads me. I have given Him total control, and He has directed my life right into a miracle and all I can say is WOW! I can't complete my God given assignment on my own, but God has blessed me with remarkable people around me to assist me in this journey. I've said that the best is yet to come. It's here, and I believe that more will be reveal as I stay connected to the source that flows with milk and honey. What's making all the difference in my life today is that God has placed several individuals in my life that believe in me, encourage me, rebuke me, and willing to invest in me. How does that make me feel? Blessed, but it also takes me down to my knees because I can't but God can. For so long I tried to do it own my own, and make things happen the way that I thought they should be going. I connected myself to people that was really only interested in what they could get out of it, and when things didn't go there way ridiculed, and did hurtful things. My prayer today is that God takes me by the hand and continue leading and directing my life. As God blesses me, and the ministry my goal is to be a blessing in the lives of others. I want more of God, and less of the mess of Kenneth Wilkins. Thanks God for loving me.

"Dare To Do The Impossible"

This year I am constantly evaluating my spiritual condition. I was having an interesting conversation with someone and they brought up a subject that has been pondering thoughts within. They made a statement that they wasn't ready. When are we ready? I find that most of the time when I believe that I am ready to take on additional responsibility or an new endeavor I am not ready. I say to myself often that I am not ready because something within brings about an uncomfortable feeling or it may require surrender in areas of my life that I am not willing to let go of yet. How could this be? I should be living a life of commitment to Christ, therefore I should be ready to take on whatever He calls me to. My dependence should never be on my abilities, talents, or giftedness, but in Christ Jesus. I have failed in many areas of life because my dependence was in worldly things. I believe that over the years I have missed out on many opportunities because I refused to trust God and relied on self effort. I have taken "try" out of my vocabulary, and replaced it with "trust". God determines when I am ready today. My goal is to dare to do the impossible and that entials wherever, and whatever God has for me. The people in the bible didn't do extraordinary things because of anything special that they did humanly. They accomplish great feets because of their faith. I have failed many times in life, but that will not stop me from striving to live for Jesus, and to touch the world with his gospel. I am believing today in my heart that the best is yet to come. Some great things are happening and doors are opening; not because of me, but because I am in a place that I dare to do the impossible through Christ Jesus.

"The Power Of Love"

1 Corinthians 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Love is a powerful force that I believe that I have disregarded for years. I think about what was the deciding factor in me changing my life. People loving me unconditionally. People demonstrating the same love that they experienced through knowing Jesus Christ. At one point in my life I was angry, resentful, and put myself above all else. I was miserable, but you would of never knew this because I masked it with work, exercise, women, and social events. Deep within I was longing for love. Not a love that the world offers, but a compassionate, and unconditional love that can only be found in Christ Jesus. I tried everything to find this love, but everything fell short. I met a group of men who began to demonstrate love to me inspite of my failures, and shortcomings. They encouraged me to study the bible with them, and something began to happen to me on the inside. I began to experience a love that was unexplainable. My life on the outside began to change because inwardly I began to let go of the anger, resentments, and bitterness. The love of Christ was like a consuming fire, and began a purification process within that continues. Love never fails we fail to love. The love of God can reach the deepest and darkest places of life and pull that individual out, and bring about a change. The power of love changes lives, restores marriages, and individuals, and gives hope to the hopeless. "THE POWER OF LOVE"

Get Out The Boat

I think about Peter in the Gospels of how he was the only one of the 12 disciples willing to get out of the boat. I was doing well for sometime, but found himself beginning to glance at the storm around him, and began to sink. He sank because he took his eyes off Jesus. Every so often I find myself look at the things around me, and talking my focus off of Jesus. I begin to sink focusing on my struggles, circumstances, and obstacles, and forgetting about the great and mighty power of God. It a wonderful lesson that we can learn about keeping our eyes fixed on Jesus. God says that His grace is sufficient no matter the circumstance. I am blessed to have some wonderful people in my life that helps me navigate back on course with my focus. You can learn some remarkable things about friends, and life when a storm blows into your life. Today I will fix my eyes on Jesus.

A Loving Wife

I am thankful that God has blessed me with a wife that supports the dream and vision that God has placed in my heart. I can remember years ago struggling inwardly if I should marry my wife. I really thought that I was some great prize for her. Year later I find out that she was the prize for me. I make sure that I thank her daily for her love, comfort, and encouragement to continue with the plan that God has placed within my heart. Each week I share some new project, evangelism project, video production or sermon that God has placed on my heart and she simply says go for it baby if that is what God has placed within your heart regardless of how crazy it may sound. I understand today that God has blessed me with someone that fits the plan and purpose that He has placed within my heart. Pastors has a tendency to like to do all the talking, but my wife says very nicely at times "baby don't you think you have done enough talking in one day". Her life displays her selflessness that amazes me, and helps me stay focused on God's agenda in my own life.

Getting Into The Trenches

Ministry is more than wearing the pretty suits, making videos, audio cd's, and speaking in front of large congregations. The heart of ministry is getting into the trenches to reach others for Christ. Ministry is being willing to get dirty, and get into the trenches with the the world around you to show them love. This 4th of July I got dirty to reach people within the community. I remember someone showing me unconditional love when I felt like all hope was lost for me. I keep that memory fresh in my mind. My goal with Finally Free Ministry is letting people know that wherever you are in life help is available in Jesus Christ. I have those high moments where I want to just keep what God has blessed me with to myself, but God blesses me to give to others. My goal is to take the gospel to the world. I must say that it is not easy every day, but I pray for strength, courage, wisdom, and resources to continue this remarkable journey.

My Turning Point

Someone asked me a question. What was the turning point in my life? I really use to believe that I was living a successful, and glorious life living for myself. Everything that I did, and all my goals were centered around me. Me, Me, Me was how I live. Instant gratification. I could not accomplish any long turn goals because I always wanted instant results. I began working, and centering myself around people who showed me a different type of love. A love that was not based on my performance, or what I could do for them. It was the love of Christ. How did this change my life you may be asking? Many people go to church, and read their bibles which is great, but what happen was someone began to explain and show me how powerful the bible becomes when we live what it teaches. My attitude changed which affected my outlook on life. I was no longer consumed or a prisoner of my past or who I use to be, but was set free by the power of the Word of God. It was not a overnight process, but I made a decision within myself that I wanted what God has for me instead of settling for lies, and tricks of the enemy. I have made a decision to strive, and press forward each day regardless the challenges or struggles that I may face. It's a sad thing when we become a prisoner of our past. When we allow our past to cripple our dreams, and ambition for the future. When our best days are behind us and not in front of us. We all have a story, but when we connect and live for God it becomes His glory.

Family Matters

Dealing with family may be one of the toughest aspects of ministry, because they are dear to your heart. Like everything else they must be prayed for, and lifted up to God. One of my prayers is that God touches the lives of the members of my family. My prayer has been that each one experience the love of Christ, and are saved in the family of God. My family is changing and I want to thank God. I have been taking the lead, and sharing the love of Christ, and communicating with each one. I must remember always that I can not change anyone, but only share the love of God and His Word. If not careful I can get caught up in my feelings and emotions when dealing with family because of the love that I have for them. Within the next couple weeks I will have them visiting me, and I am very excited - but what is more important than my excitement is that they experience the love of Christ. God continues to open up opportunities for me to share the love of Christ in so many ways, and it is a blessing, but also a responsibility that I must stay before Him about. They're some events and activities that are coming up with the ministry, and in my personal life that I have been seeking God to show up, and show out in. I am learning the importance of including God in everything that is done - remarkable results begin to occur. I want to thank God this morning for beginning to bring healing and restoration within my family. Family Matters.

Leaving Behind A Legacy

God is showing me that life is about building relationships. Nothing else is more important. Everything else fades, but what last is relationships that we build throughout our lives. As the ministry continues to grow, and God opens new opportunities for the ministry we want to build relationships with people and I believe the influence begins when they experience something different about you. At times I do struggle, but what keeps me going is that I don't live for myself anymore. It's scary at times for me because I sense God calling my to continue to step out into the deep. I am willing to sacrifice all for the sake of reaching others for Christ. I can't explain it - but that is where God is taking me more and more each day that I follow. I do not know all the answers, but I am willing, and I know someone who know all things. I truly believe that as we venture out into the deep we become vulnerable because we begin to bring down the walls to allow others to enter our world. My dependence has to be on God for protection, guidance, and provision. What I find remarkable is what God is revealing to me inwardly - it keeps me in awe, and is blowing me away. As I grow in God's Word - He gives me insight to take the gospel to the world, and build relatonships leaving behind a legacy.

Visting Family & Sharing The Gospel

We were in Asbury Park, New Jersey today visiting my wife's dad, and aunt. Her father is a 76 years old cancer survivor, and he doing well. We had an opportunity to hand out some books today "Get Smart", and share the CD "The Truth Will Set You Free". We were touched today because we are living in Florida, but were blessed to see how the ministry is touching people lives in New Jersey through the website, and CD teachings. Today we will be heading to Philadelphia, PA to see my brother Darnell Wilkins family. This vacation has prompted the May CD teaching to be about trusting God. I am learning the importance of trusting God. He will take you on a journey of a lifetime through trusting Him. My vision for the ministry is very simple to share the love of Christ with the world, and to be willing to go where He directs the ministry. I am buckling my seat belt because I am preparing for what's next. If God is orchestrating things it will be an adventure of a lifetime.

Spending Time With Family

We made it safely to New Jersey, and yesterday my wife and I were completely exhausted from all the driving from Florida. We stopped in Savannah, GA to visit some old friends, and I must say that it is wonderful to connect with old friends to encourage, and love on them. I am haven't seen my family members in our 2 years. I have learned over the years how to love each particular family member right where they are. Good, bad, or indifferent. That enables me to love the without any conditions. My goal while while visiting on this vacation is that the love of Christ is seen as I visit each family member and friend.

Finally Free Vacation

What a awesome time we are having on this vacation? On Saturday we went to the Holy Land Experience in Orlando, Florida, and we had an experience of a lifetime. We met wonderful people, and saw the power of God transforming the world. God Word is going into other countries and places and impacting people lifestyles, and cultures. This Sunday morning we are headed to Destiny Church with Pastor Zachery Tims. We are praying that God uses our ministry to minster to the world to express and share His awesome love with everyone. We are blessed to be experiencing this awesome love of God of our 6 anniversary in our marriage. One day of this vacation has blown me away, and I can't wait to see what else God has in store for my family, and ministry.

There Is Hope!!!!

It's now 8:40 pm and I am still going. I woke up this morning at 7:00 after going to bed at 2pm. Many times I will begin a new project, and the excitement will keep me going. I just love when God shows me something new, or how to do something I have been doing a better way. The wonderful thing about following Christ is that at times I find myself pushing myself, but boy it is a joy when God shows up and gives you that extra strength to go on. I am excited as I go into this week. I spoke with some new production and media people today after church, and they informed me that they will be able to help me with production of bible studies, and improve my current CD ministry. I will be able to produce more to a better price, and the quality will also improve. Media ministry is always changing. I am also impressed with the website as it has changed again. The pictures and content are becoming more effective to reach and help others. I do not have much help right now in our ministry, but people are showing up to help a brother out. We have made plans to travel to New Jersey in April. It will be a road trip where we will stop a couple places to share the gospel. I have to go do some more work before bed. Finally Free Ministry on the move.

Revived

They are times when I just feel like I have nothing left. I feel sapped, but God gives me what I need to complete the task. Creativity, ideas for ministry, family life, teaching, and more projects can begin to consume a person if not careful. At times I feel these pressures. The thing with ministry is staying before God to receive direction. I am learning that the joy is in the journey - the good times, the struggles, the bleeps, and blunders all play a significance towards God shaping and molding me to use me for His plan and purpose.